I Lied... (I Didn't Lie)

I lied when I said it was ok.
When I said I was ok.
I lied when I said I'd never
hold it against you.
I do, every day...

I lied when I said it was ok.
When I said I was ok.
I lied when I said we could
be just friends.
I can't do it...

I lied when I said it was ok.
When I said I was ok.
I lied when I said we could try
to be together again.
I don't see it...

I lied when I said it was ok.
When I said it had to be this way.
I lied when I said I was fine
That you stopped being my friend
I need you in my life...

Except, you see I didn't lie.
I didn't lie, because I couldn't lie.
I just didn't know at the time
that I didn't mean it.
I cannot do it.

{work in progress}
Everyone says things they swear they mean. However, sometimes afterwards, we realize we didn't mean it, we can't do what we thought we could... These are some of those times.